As much as i hate to let off bad vibes i really need to vent. i am sitting here literally about to sob because i feel like i should be a lot more responsible than i am at my age. i dont want to live at home anymore,i want my own place, i want a full time job and a car but none of that comes easy. i have been doing a bunch of nothing for the past few years, working part time jobs half assing school and it needs to stop. i have 16 credit hours to finish up my associates left and i really need to get to that next semester. I keep getting to comfortable at the same job that only gives me 4 1/2 hr shifts and sometimes they end up being 2 hrs because were over on hours. i dont have a car because i blow all my money like its nothing, yes i get to have some good times but fuck when im here alone facing reality, its bad, really bad. I know its never to late to get it together but right now i just want to cry it all out so i can clear my head and get my game plan together and carry it out. i dont understand what happens to me and why i keep losing sight of the game plan but i wish i wouldnt because its sooo soo stressful not having it atleast semi together. but i guess i should be letting that motivate me to do better for myself and i am, i need to stop worrying about the fun and worry about not giving myself all that stress over finances and such. i have to remember that to live with certain comforts you have to give up other comforts but that the sacrifices are worth it , its worth getting what i want, it really is. but enough with words time to put my plans into action.